There will be church bells ringing March 5, 2013
The mystery of her suddenly establishing an art’s page may
have resolved itself, and to my relief it may have nothing to do with our
company’s owner and an alleged plot to bring her back as the company
photographer.
She was recently thanked for “wonderful day and night” by a husband-and-wife
design team from the town where she works, an Arab couple, the wife of whom
appears to be the one thanking her – though it is difficult to tell with so
little real information.
Did this encounter with the wife or husband or both inspire
her to dig out her old art projects and put them on display, a possible
backdoor out of her current situation?
Maybe this will evolve into a new career (and if history is
an indication), a new romantic entanglement, since she seems unable to separate
the two.
Yesterday, she posted a new poem and a new video on her
public Facebook page, and since she has not yet cut off access to me from it,
it is difficult to know if she meant for me to see it or has long moved on and
doesn’t really care who sees it or not.
At some point, she may shut the whole thing down, as she has
previous poetry pages, or no longer find public announcements of her art useful
any longer.
The poem is a long one, yet not as cryptic as some of her
previous poems have been, an extended metaphor about her ache for success.
The video is much more curious and appears to be centered on
the church bells that are ringing from the church next door to her building, a
kind of extended selfie, as she holds the camera so she can film herself as she
makes her way through her apartment, starting in the living room and eventually
ending up in the kitchen and the open window where she sometimes sits smoking,
only in this case, she pans out at the church, then back to her face. She looks
forlorn as she weaves her hair with her fingers.
In the past, she posted photos of herself as a kind of self-promotion,
very suggestive – especially her eyes, or pictures of her angry, but always images
of herself in control, the queen who is always looking into the magic mirror
asking who is the fairest in the land (an attempt I suppose to hide her
insecurity, knowing she is beautiful, yet not always convinced other people
think so.)
This video shows her in distress, supporting some of the
things she’s hinted at in her Facebook and poetry posts, a new kind of self
portrait that portrays her uncertainty.
I’m not sure what it means, if anything at all, or if she is
trying to provoke a reaction in someone, she knows will be looking at the
video.
It is difficult not to react when looking at her images –
something she is well aware of.
Yet what is the point in her portraying herself in distress?
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