Test or trap? Dec. 26, 2012
Over the last few weeks, I’ve made mention of her Facebook
account. This is one of the odd things about this whole situation, how for some
reason I have access to it again, after having been shut out of it months ago.
I found out she unblocked me quite by accident when I was on
a mutual friend’s site and saw a post from her.
Why on earth did she unblock me? Is this a trap or some kind
of test?
We’re not friends on Facebook. So, I don’t have access to
the inner details as I once did when she boasted to one of her family members
about having a romantic liaison with someone she was tutoring, or the
invitation to some old friend to “come see me sometime.”
The front page of people’s Facebook pages tends to be very
generic, which is possibly why she feels safe unblocking me – nothing to be
gained by accessing it.
Yet, it is the principle, why unblock me when there is no
reason to, unless she wants access to my Facebook – which is nearly as generic
as hers.
But even then, there as clues to each of us even in this generic
page – such as her buttering up a local theater company suggesting she might
use them as reference for her future career – she did tell the Small Man she
was seeking a job on NBC. She has
routinely used her page for self-promotion. I expect little has changed.
I would think nothing of the reference to the theater
company had I not specifically asked her about the performance prior to her
leaving our office, when she claimed she didn’t know anything about it.
Since she rarely posted such stuff before, I have to wonder
if there is a connection.
This may be reading too much into all of it on my part,
although her poetry shows how subtle she can be a times, “elusive and clever,”
as she once said of me.
For all her Facebook tends to offer, I prefer her poetry,
which is a gateway into her soul, regardless of how subtle she is in her
writing.
Her last poem spoke about her being alone, or at least
raising serious red flags about the dating scene. Her Facebook page seems to
confirm this, showing her in Christmas scenes with her family, yet no
significant other.
None the less, it is all so indirect as not to be trusted.
She posts poems expressing feelings, but sometimes it is impossible
to translate these into a more common vernacular, meaning what they mean
without easily being understood by someone on the outside.
Whenever her reasoning for letting me have access to her
Facebook page is, I’m not taking it as any kind of sign. I’ll just keep reading
her poetry and listening to her music, from a safe distance.
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