Like a bolt of lightning Aug. 17, 2012

 

Her mood swings are driving me crazy.

Utterly cold on Tuesday, she warmed up to me today, making me believe Mary Ann’s assessment that what she really wants is control.

The whole conflict over her birthday three weeks ago seems less about wishing her an unwelcome happy birthday than it was about keeping me in my place with a follow up poem telling me to accept the inevitable – which I have.

She doesn’t want me to contact her, and yet at the office she continues to contact me – usually for something she really doesn’t need.

As she did today, asking me something about happenings in the town I cover which have nothing to do with her.

Today, she emailed me about a story about a strip club worker working in one of her towns that happens to live in the town I cover. Something I know nothing about and have no information to give her.

The email popped up like a bolt of lightning.

Since I had been told never to forward anything to her ever again including press releases relevant to her, this sudden intrusion shocked me.

It is difficult to tell whether this is a friendly gesture or a provocation, a trap of some sort to show I violated my part of our agreement. This coming after the owner’s search of my computer and coming up empty may have inspired this.

Do I respond or not? Do I take this as an indication that it is okay as long as she makes the first move?

Or is this one more test to determine if I will honor the rules, and if so, I hope I pass.

 

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